有朋友问：如果再来一次，你是否还会用一辈子的悲伤来换短暂的幸福。我当时也没办法回答，因为这悲伤是一辈子的悲伤，而那种痛是至命的痛，像一把尖尖得刀，不只狠狠地插进你的心，拔也拔不去，还像有个电转，转进你的五藏六腑里，除了心会痛，肺，肠和胃都会抽在一起，像有个电转在里边一直转。现在终于明白什么叫肝肠寸断，什么叫伤心欲绝。
但有你的那种幸福也非笔墨能形容的，你那无私的爱，你那深情的眼神，你那可爱的笑脸，你那静静的等候，最重要的还有你那默默的奉献和没有要求回报的爱 还有你的一切一切，都会让我忘掉一切的烦劳和疲累。能抱住你痛哭流泪一场或者能抱住你哈哈大笑，感觉十分美妙，十分幸福，这是一种福分。
现在我想。。。如果是你，我还是愿意！但我想一次就够了，我不敢再爱多一次了，一次已经够了！
Hi,
I am sorry to know of your loss. I randomly will pop by to read your blog cos I own a maltese too.
In fact, come Sept this year, it would be my darling Snowee’s 2nd yr death anniversary.
The pain that you are going through now, I understand and have been through it myself.
The grieving never really end.
For me, I tried to channeled myself to try to do something good for those dogs out there who need help.
In my heart, I told myself, hopefully Snowee will help lead me to another maltese for her to accompany me.
Cos maltese for adoption are really rare to come by.
Miraclely, things really did fall into place. After almost a year of Snowee’s passing, I got to know a friend who does rescue work for dogs and she helped link me to one of the many dogs from the PuppyMill saga that made the papers 1 yr ago.
It was a female maltese as I wish for, just like Snowee.
So, I took the plunge to open my heart again to her which I named Smilee. Coming this end April, she will be with me for 1 yr. I never regretted adopting her, and she uses Snowee’s stuff which I constantly talk to her about her elder sister Snowee.
Smilee is a totally different character as compared to my darling Snowee, but I am thankful too cos I know no dog can replace my Darling Snowee.
I brought Snowee’s ashes home with me, and I talk to her everyday before I leave for work to ask her and Smilee to take care of each other when they are home alone without me.
There is 1 yr anniversary party for all the rescued dogs from the puppymill this sat and sunday at Mutts and Muttens. I will be attending with Smilee.
I just want to say if u are ready to go with an open heart, feel free to come down to take a look, as far as I know, there will be adoption drives for dogs too.
You have my email as above. If you wish, you can always drop me an email.
Regards,
Serene
Hi Serene,
Thanks for reading my blog, have send u an email, pls check.
Jenny
Hi Jen,
Sorry for the late response, I checked my email, didnt receive your previous email.
You want to resend it to me again?